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I try my best to be a happy person for those around me. I’ll complain sometimes but when I want a certain person to take my words or lack there of and they get mad and upset, I feel sick in the pit of my stomach.

What am I supposed to do when someone is so angry and depressed that I can’t just listen to their nothing’s while being silent myself…? I can’t fix anything and it scares me…

How do I take it back? How do I go back and talk about nothing just so they aren’t mad I’m silent? They have problems greater than mine and I put myself first. Even when they mean so god damn much to me.

So I have a cavity in my wisdom tooth…

Good thing that sucker was coming out anyways. But I might not go under when they do it. I might do it awake with a numb mouth to save $1200…

Yo, that’s gonna be funny.

I love that after all kinds of math, I know that I can support myself in a cheaper apartment. So if I move in with my best friend we’ll have plenty of elbow room. Man, I was thinking a single bedroom but I can see two bedroom now. We’d each get our own room and our boyfriends could visit!

But this is still a year out at least… So I’m going to have a mock expense sheet which is really just me keeping track of how much to save.

I’m tired but awake and I’m thinking too much and having little mood swings and I’m waiting for my period to start because that’s probably the reason I’m feeling like this but at the same time what if I don’t have my period and shit happens, fuck, I need to sleep and not think about stuff but I’ve been sleeping horribly and having random nightmares…